Welcome to Beginning To Zen (BTZ). My name is Carolyn Holland but you may call me CC (everybody does). After facing my own mortality 3 times in 10 months I began searching for my life’s purpose.
Beginning with a stroke in September of 2016 which left me with brain damage in the left prefrontal lobe of my brain; my speech cortex specifically. Then in December 2, 2016, I was pistol whipped nearly to death by one of three masked gunmen during an invasion of my home. My very brave 12-year-old son who awakened during the attack punched my assailant in the back of the head, saving my life. Finally, in July of 2017 I had a complete hysterectomy to remove multiple tumors on my uterus and ovaries.
I have never much believed in luck or coincidence for that matter. From early adolescence, my family joked that I was blessed with instant karma because I noticed how quickly my thoughts affected my reality. I felt sure that God was sending me an urgent message and I did not want to be told a fourth time to pay attention. I had so many questions. But beneath the questions I realized something else. If I had died it would have been with regrets.
I am on a journey to find answers to my questions about my continued existence and to start living with purpose. I have chosen to share my experiences with all of you in hopes that I may help someone else find their purpose too. How I got to this point in my life is known. I am here now. And here you are. We are on this path of discovering how I can become the change I want to see in the world and live a life free from regrets. I hope you will all come along and stay tuned from Beginning To Zen. Namaste.